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It's hard to love someone so much in this taught moment and not being able to give them a simple hug. Our talk now is more about how we can be happy together without harming each others.  She is still crying and keep asking me how I feel about the new situation. " Everything is gonna be ok, Baby!", I kept saying. I AM AFRAID. Yes, I am for the first time in my whole life I'm afraid of losing the one I loved the most. Sadness, shock and not being able to believe my baby will have to suffer from diabetes for the rest of her life.  I kept reading about how couple are dealing with it but nothing much. Simple advices from doctors and "experts". I hate it, I hate how it's so unclear.   She is slipping away. Trying to make me happy by letting me live a normal life. What makes it worst is, I travel to another country for work.  It's hard, really hard. She is dealing with the news by herself and not sharing with me her pain. 

We have been thru a lot of ups and downs. Today is one of the downs days. My girlfriend has a problem in sleeping and kept waking up at night. She was not feeling ok, fatigue and lack of sleep.  All what she wants is to eat something sweet when she wakes up every night. This last days been so rough full of stress and pressure because of work, living at her sister's appartement and COVID-19. Being in lockdown because of corona virus has separate us and make a huge impact on our little dreams of living together and having a good time. Our dreams and future together is on thread not only because of COVID-19 and what could happen to both of us in this unexpected time, now my girlfriend has diabetes. I was with her on phone trying to be with her as much as I can to make her forget this bad news and doing some research together to see how we can live with this new member of family. It's part of our life now, there is no escape. While we were talking on phone. "I will tak